Addicts I've known seem to have no soul, and it takes years to come back. A dear friend of mine recently relapsed after years of being clean. He couldn't bear the thought of the return journey and killed himself. He walked alone
Maybe you can relate to this, maybe not, but I've found in my life that purposefully exposing myself to lethal physical danger is a good cure for general anxiety.
I think much of the prevalence of neurosis today is because we are hardwired to mentally process/overcome life threatening hazards. For most denizens of the first world, there is no such stressor, so the mind malfunctions by creating anxiety yet there is no outlet to process it.
I thought of this because you seem to be claiming that you dealt with existential terror by taking yourself to the edge of death via opioid injections. It makes perfect sense.
This is a great read. I'm sure there was a lot of personal pain that contributed to its greatness. You're an interesting guy. Thanks for posting your interesting ideas. Maybe I'll contribute to your tip jar when I get less poor. God speed.
Addicts I've known seem to have no soul, and it takes years to come back. A dear friend of mine recently relapsed after years of being clean. He couldn't bear the thought of the return journey and killed himself. He walked alone
Maybe you can relate to this, maybe not, but I've found in my life that purposefully exposing myself to lethal physical danger is a good cure for general anxiety.
I think much of the prevalence of neurosis today is because we are hardwired to mentally process/overcome life threatening hazards. For most denizens of the first world, there is no such stressor, so the mind malfunctions by creating anxiety yet there is no outlet to process it.
I thought of this because you seem to be claiming that you dealt with existential terror by taking yourself to the edge of death via opioid injections. It makes perfect sense.
How did you get OFF heroin?
This is a great read. I'm sure there was a lot of personal pain that contributed to its greatness. You're an interesting guy. Thanks for posting your interesting ideas. Maybe I'll contribute to your tip jar when I get less poor. God speed.